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Chapter 1—What Goes Up
A man about to win his second Super Bowl should be a lot more excited about it.
Like a well-programmed robot, Tyler Harris zeroed in on his receiver, instinctively calculated the distance, and hurled the ball into the air. The second the football left his hands he knew it’d be a touchdown catch.
His cousin, and the Seattle Steelheads’ top wide receiver, Derek Ramsey, blazed into the end zone with his lightning speed, spun around at the exact right moment, and caught the ball.
Ty waited for the smugness, the confidence, the satisfaction to surge through him. He waited for the greatest natural high on earth to engulf him, a high better than the best sex—and that was pretty damn fucking good.
Usually.
But nothing happened. Absolutely nothing.
Two more minutes to glory. The defense took the field and held the Bruins. The clock ticked off the last seconds until the scoreboard displayed 00:00.
The stands erupted. Confetti blinded Tyler in a snowstorm of red, white, and blue. The stuff swirled through the air and stuck to his sweat-soaked uniform. Teammates slapped his back. Coaches hugged him. The roar of the fans deafened him. Sportscasters crammed microphones in his face and barked questions at him. Rabid reporters yanked on his Number Eleven jersey and fought for his attention.
He stood frozen in place, staring at the scoreboard. He felt more like a shell-shocked soldier than a conquering field general who’d led his troops to victory in the final battle and won the war.
Except he wasn’t a general. He wasn’t a fucking hero. He’d never risked his life to save others. He’d never tramped through the desert or the jungle not knowing if his next step would be his last. He’d never sacrificed so others could have a better life—or even have a life. He was just a guy gifted with an athletic body and a no-quit attitude.
He didn’t deserve this. The adulation, the money, the fame…none of it.
But since when did he give a shit if it was deserved or not?
What the fuck was wrong with him?
Every football player lived for this moment from the first second he gripped a football. It should’ve been the happiest time of his life, a defining moment in a career of defining moments. Two Super Bowls under his belt and a sure MVP of the game. He was a future Hall of Famer with a lot of gas left in his tank, still in his prime, not even thirty years old. The press touted him as the hottest QB in the league.
Nowhere to go from here but…down.
Nothing had been the same since Tyler and his cousin had befriended a sick and lonely teenage football player who’d been abandoned. Ryan had been fighting cancer, and it was too much for his alcoholic mother to handle. The team embraced Ryan and took responsibility for his well-being. Ever cheerful and optimistic, the teenager lost his valiant battle a week before the Super Bowl.
Tyler busted his ass, as did his teammates, to win the championship for Ryan. After that, everything changed. Try as he might, Tyler couldn’t resurrect his passion for the game, for life, for anything. Hell, not even for sex.
Like a disembodied spirit, he observed the scene, detached and way too fucking melancholy in the midst of the celebratory mayhem engulfing him. Jostled around by the crowd, he barely felt them. He stood in the middle of the crowd, numb, apathetic, and alone. The emptiness smothered him, gnawed at his gut, consumed him.
Regardless of his apathy, he wouldn’t rain on his teammates’ parade.
Forcing a grin he didn’t feel and adopting his cocky façade, he faced the television cameras and gave them what they’d come to expect from him, an arrogant yet entertaining recap of his performance. Then he stood on the podium and made one of his typical fist-pumping speeches laced with wry humor. After which he did every post-game interview with his usual brash panache. No one noticed his mechanical movements or the dead smile.
Was this all there was?
What had happened to his legendary enthusiasm for the game, his penchant for living life on the edge? He’d lost himself somewhere between college jock and superstar athlete, though it hadn’t mattered before. He’d lived in blissful ignorance until that fateful night when Ryan died.
If all the hype and his public image was stripped away, he didn’t have a fucking clue who lived underneath.
All this deep shit rattling around in his brain was way too much introspection for him. He shook off this momentary lapse into deep thought, took a deep breath, and squared his shoulders. In a week, he’d start the relentless pursuit of winning all over again because losing, for Tyler, had never been an option.
Glancing at his watch, he followed his teammates out of the locker room via a back door, down the long hallway leading to buses waiting to take them to the airport. A couple hours and a few glasses of champagne later the team plane touched down in Seattle. Security hustled them past the large crowds to waiting limos.
Waving and grinning, he acknowledged the hordes of fans crammed into every spare inch of terminal space. He paused and breathed in the crisp Seattle air. His teammates shouted to each other, planning parties that would last well into the morning.
Cass, his longtime fiancée and even longer-time girlfriend, would expect to attend every one of them. She’d already texted him with her location at a teammate’s home on Lake Washington. The Vegas line against them ever getting married had once topped out at fifty-to-one and dipped to fifteen-to-one after he’d set a date for two weeks from today.
Claustrophobia set in, smothering him. He was trapped, trapped in a career he no longer had a hunger for. His self-created bad-boy image pigeonholed him in a role he wasn’t sure he wanted to play. His upcoming wedding in two weeks weighed him down with doubt. Cass and he were fire and ice. Hot as hell one moment and barely speaking to each other the next.
He needed to escape, clear his head, gain some clarity.
Tyler slid behind the wheel of his sports car and accelerated out of the underground parking garage. His wheels spun on the rain-slickened streets as he turned a corner too quickly. Instead of heading toward I-5 and Mercer Island for a night of celebration, he turned in the opposite direction, dodging in and out of cars on the four-lane street. The light ahead turned yellow; Tyler punched the gas.
And slammed right into the back of a police car.
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Jami Davenport is a USA Today Bestselling author of more than twenty novels and novellas. 
